the past 5 days have been a whirlwind, to say that least. and to be honest, i really wanted to hold off on posting any photos, out of respect to clary, our photographer, but i want to put my feelings down on paper while they’re still fresh.
saturday was, obviously, the best day of my life. but i still feel so weird about all the happenings. i have a “husband” now? this man, who i can barely get used to calling my “fiance” is now my “husband”? weird. all the vows i worked so hard constructing? i just said them (without crying, mind you) and now we’re legally bound? the whole day flew by in the blink of an eye…i expected that, but it almost made me sad when night fell.
i found myself incredibly calm, strong and serene on saturday. more so than i expected. turns out, when times get tough, i get tougher. seeing josh during our first look was the single greatest moment of my life. he/we, were so connected and raw. it was powerful. but while i found him getting more emotional than i’ve ever seen him, i found myself more rock solid than ever. same when being walking down the aisle by my two dads…dean got teary (i didn’t see him, i HEARD him) and i couldn’t help but smile and feel proud of myself. proud that i stuck to my guns and refused to let anyone tell me i shouldn’t have both my dad’s walk me down the aisle.
it’s not to say we didn’t have any hiccups…we did. our wedding singer fell ill to the flu, so there was frantic scrambling on friday. oh and did you know we’re under a serious helium shortage? i’m so tired of talking about this earth’s lack of helium. oh and i’m also tired of talking about family members who refuse to be selfless or supportive. we’re so done with that.
but here i sit, 5 days later, with a husband…a man who loves me and is more excited to be married to me than i ever thought possible…a new last name and further proof that we have a backbone of friends and family who love and support us more than i ever thought possible.
high fives to all.
and if your curious:
my look– dress: watters//shoes: jimmy choo//hair piece: bhldn//earrings: kate spade
josh’s look– suit: bonobos//tie: drake’s, london//shoes: florsheim//socks: jcrew
I think Mrs. Premuda just called me soft…for the record, I didn’t go into full-on blubber mode as I thought I would have.